Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Sun Sand and Sea in Antique


I couldn't come up with anymore excuses. When Mother John texted me once again to come to Maybato Norte in Antique, I conceded. I ran out of excuses.

Makailang beses na rin ako iniimbita ng aking nanay sa panulatan na bumisita pero laging hindi natutuloy. Either something comes up sa kanya o sa aking schedule at lagi na lang nauunsyami, o di kaya, tinatamaan ng katamaran o nasasayangang pumunta kung di naman din ang matagal tagal tulad ng mga dalawa o tatlong araw.

Last weekend, nag yaya ulit si Mother John. Magbababang luksa kasi sila sa Nanay nila. Ang tawag sa amin nun "Bungkag Lalaw". Ang tawag naman sa kanila, Hukas Lalaw. Pagkatapos ng Friday Shift ko, gusto ko na dumiretso sa Maybato pero tinamaan ng tamadgic syndrome kaya Sunday ng umaga na ako tumulak papuntang Antique.

Parusa halos ang liliko likong daan na nasa gilid ng bundok at napakadelikado. Bituka ng manok halos. Nadaanan namin ang isang thermal trak na natumba sa daan at dalawang tulay din ang inaayos pa. Ramdam pa rin ang pinsalang dulot ng Bagyong Frank. Hindi na ako nakatulog sa L300 Van gaya nung isa at unang pagkakataong bumiyahe ako papuntang San Jose Antique nung mag B.O.S at Immersion kami para sa Para Legal Training ko sa Alternative Law Groups tatlong summer na ang nakakaraan. Paano ba naman kasi eh parang nasa octopus ride ako sa perya sa grabeng paliko liko at lulubak lubak na daan.

Mga dalawang oras humigit kumulang din ang byahe galing Iloilo hanggang nakarating ako sa bahay ni Mother John sa Maybato at piyesta ang dinatnan ko. Niloko ko si Mother John na ambongga bongga naman ng debut nya, imbitado kasi ang buong baranggay. Baha ang pagkain at inumin. Pyestang pyesta at taob ang miting de abanse. Maliit pa nga daw yun, sabi ni Sunshine na bunso nila Mother! I could imagine kung ano ang malaking handaan!

Nakakatuwa ang mga kwento ni Mimi na kapatid ni Mother John, at namiss ko din si Shine, ang bunsong kapatid nila Mother na nag memedicine at kaibigan ko din. Pati si Tatay nila, nakakatuwa. Magpapakasal sa susunod na Linggo! KABOG! Mag aasawang muli si Kapitan! TARAY!

Kinagabihan, gusto ko sanang tumambay tambay sa plaza pero deikado daw sabi ni Mother John. Nadisappoint naman ako kasi iniimadyin ko ang San Jose bilang isang progresibong kapital town ng probinsya o di kaya, isang "little town, little quiet village" kung saan pwedeng mag yosi yosi at mag usap usap sa plaza. Hindi pala. Sabi ni Mother, kasi nga daw, nasa akward stage ang San Jose. Not so little, but not yet big. Confused and violent stage of indecision daw. Since ayoko naman i push ang isyu, sa bahay na lang kami nung gabing yun at wala pang alas diyes, natulog na kami.



Masarap ang mini pahinga/bakasyon sa bahay ng Mother John. Magiliw at masuyo ang lahat ng tao, at alaga naman ako. Ayoko halos umalis sa kwarto ni Mother na nagmistulang library sa dami ng libro. I LIKE! Nasa kama lang ako nakahilata at nagyoyosi habang nagbabasa. Sarap ng buhay!

Syempre pa! Hindi mawawala ang paliligo sa dagat! Kaya nag tampisaw ang Sirenang Makata at ang kanyang anak sa dagat ng Maybato. Sabi ko sa Mother John, kailangan ko makaligo sa dagat ng Maybato at baka yun ang sikreto na naging magaling na manunulat siya. Baka mabahaginhan din ako ng Magic ng dagat ng Maybato. Baka pagkatapos ko maligo dun, dadami pa ang Palanca Award ko at magkakaroon din ako ng National Book Award at kung ano ano pang mga karangalan sa pagsusulat.



Ayoko pa sanang umuwi nung Lunes kasi nag paiwan ang Mother John dahil at stake ang state ng Kinaray-a Literature sa kanyang gagawin kung bakit hindi pa sya makakasabay sa akin pauwi ng Iloilo gaya ng unang napagusapan namin, pero kailangan na talaga. I swear! Babalik ako dun! Pramis!

Gaya ng sabi ng isang kantang Kinaray-a:

"Mauli gid ako sa Antique. Mabalik gid ako sa banwa nga matawhay. Mauli gid ako sa Antique, Kay na hidlaw run gid takun sang raha sa balay!"


Thanks for having me there Mother John. It was a much needed soul-break!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Hu R U?



There's this burning question on my mind right now. I called in sick at work last Thursday. I had body pains and malaise, fever and chills and no matter how I wanted to get up, I can not coax my body to do it. It simply won't cooperate.

I hated it that I had to miss work that day.

The next day, I reported back to work with a medical certificate and worried friends asking if I was alright. I still ran a fever that day. When I had my first break for the night, I went out for a smoke and I assured my friends that I was all right.

When I came back to my cubicle, I saw these. It has my name on it, but no other information. No notes nor sender's name. Who might you be, and what is it that you want from me? Why?


Cute M&M's August Bear and White and Blue Roses found on my cubicle

Nobody seemed to have noticed anyone sneak these in on my cubicle, or maybe no one wants to tell me. I know that when you receive gifts, you do not ask why, you just say thanks, but hey, whoever you might be, thank you, but I have a few questions for you.

1. How did you know I love white roses?



2. How did you know I was wanting a little bear to bring to work?



3. Where are the chocolates? Hehehehe


Why? Why do this? If this is a get well soon gift, it worked, dear. It made my night, but you see, there is the pervading cold loneliness that you might be able to take away too. Oh and by the way, much as they are lovely to look at, I hate "blue" roses. The way they dye and stain the pure whites slay me. Also, the green bear is adorable, but it also says that it is the M&M's August Bear. It's a Peridot birth month bear, but see, I was born March. Is this a clue to who you are? Are you an August Bear? Do you want me to make you my August Bear and make me your March Bear? But thanks nevertheless. If you are just a friend, why the mysterious anonymity? Most of all, WHO ARE YOU?

I feel like a High School kid with a secret admirer all over again and I feel so giddy. WTF! If you think this would be mysteriously exciting and you want to kill me with anticipation and intrigue, well it did work! AWWWWWW!

I'm so sorry. The whole floor knows about it now. You and your little gifts. You may find it harder to sneak in a second gift next time. I didn't mean to, but see, you don't get away from questions when you log off with a nice bunch of roses and a cute little bear plus a grin from ear to ear!

Oh and one last thing, I really need to know your name, because the cute little bear needs a name too. Any suggestions?


Photo Credits:

http://cedarlounge.wordpress.com/

Thursday, December 11, 2008

HUBLAS


After that longish post on open relationships I will attempt to OPEN some things some more.

It has been a while since I last posted poetry in this blog so I am posting one of my recent works. By way of a backgrounder, I wrote this piece after the opening night of Babak Niaraki's nude photography exhibit. I noticed a guy staring endlessly at my photo. When he notices people looking at him stare, he would slink away, but come back later for more staring. I noticed him take a photo of that print of mine too. I wrote this poem with him in mind and as a way of thanking him for the silent adulation.

I really write most of my literary pieces in Hiligaynon, especially my poems, and I do not relish translating them but I know people reading this blog would ask for a translation anyway, so I tried. Oo Zen Bitch at YJ kayo yun! Hehehehe

Anyhoot... enjoy




HUBLAS
Ni Luis Batchoy

(para sa isa ka nagdayaw sa hublas nga laragway ko
sa eksibit sang mga litrato nga kuha ni Babak Niaraki)

Hublas
Ako sa panulukan mo.
Dira sa litrato
Nga kagaina mo pa ginatamdan.

Sa paghapulas
Sang panulok mo sa laragway ko,
Nagpangalisbo
Ang akun kaunuran.

Sa ma id-id mo
Nga pag himutad sa litrato ko,
May ginasagap nga sabat
Ang imo paino-ino.

Sa pag paagi mo
Sa kada kahilit hilitan,
May ginatukib ka
Nga kung anano nga nalipdan.

Ang pagpamangkutanon
Nabalhag sa imo guya.
Pagdayaw
Nga nalaktan sang pagkahangawa.

Pinalangga,
Dili mo dira masalapuan
Ang imo ginapangita
Sa malamig ko nga litrato.

Balikda bala ako
Yari sa likod mo
Ginasiguro ko sa imo
Nga nyan imo masumalangan.

Ang sabat, sa akon
Buhi, nagaginhawa
Nagabalingaso
Kag nagakalayo sa kainit nga lawas.

Yari ang nalipdan
Nga luyag mo tukibon.
Dayawa ako,
Kahangawai, himayaa!

Ang hublas nga laragway ko
Hinigugma, pabayui na.
Balikda ako nga yari sa likod mo
Tuluka, kag hublasi, dali-a!



HUBAD
Ni Luis Batchoy

(para sa isang nagpapuri sa hubad na larawan ko
sa eksibit ng mga litratong kuha ni Babak Niaraki)

Hubad
Ako sa paningin mo.
Dyan sa litrato
Na kanina mo pa pinagmamasdan.

Sa paghaplos
Ng iyong tingin sa larawan ko,
Kumislot-kislot
Ang aking kalamnan.

Sa mabusisi mong
Pag himutad sa litrato ko,
May hinahanap na sagot
Ang iyong pagmumuni

Sa pag pagpasada mp
Sa bawat kasulok-sulukan,
May dinidiskubre kang
Kung anong nakatago.

Ang pagtatanong
Nababanaag sa iyong mukha.
Pag papapuri
Na nahahaluan ng pagkamangha.

Pinalangga,
Di mo dyan matatagpuan
Ang iyong hinahanap
Sa malamig na litrato ko.

Lingunin mo kasi ako
Nandito sa likuran mo
Sinisiguro ko sa yo
Na tiyak iyong masusumpungan.

Ang sagot, sa aking
Buhay, humihinga
Nagbabaga
At nagumaapoy sa init na katawan.

Narito ang nakatago
Na gusto mong madiskubre.
Papurihan mo ako
Kamanghaan, Luwalhatiin!

Ang hubad na larawan ko
Hinigugma, damitan mo na
Lingunin mo ko na nasa likod mo
Titigan, at hubaran, bilisan na!


NAKED
By Luis Batchoy

(for one who praised my naked picture
in an exhibit of photgraphs shot by Babak Niaraki)

I Am Naked
In your view.
In that picture
That you have long been staring at.

In the caress
Of your sight to my picture,
My flesh
Twitched.

With your close scrutiny
Of my picture,
There is an answer
That your thoughts seek.

With the way you perused
Every nook and cranny
You wanted to unveil
Whatsoever is that which is enshrouded.

The very question
Is written all over your face.
Praise
Mixed with being amazed.

Beloved,
You will not find
What you seek
There in my cold picture.

Look back and you'll see
That I am here behind you
I assure you
That there and then you'd discover.

The answer in my
Living, breathing
Scorching
And flaming hot body.

Here's what's enshrouded
That you want to unveil.
Praise me
Be amazed, glorify!

My naked photograph
Beloved, dress it up now.
Look back at me
Stare at, and undress me, quick!


Photo Credits:

http://gadgetbestbuy.com/

OPEN Sesame


Our lesson for today is about Open Relationships...

Eklat lang. Naiinis ako today kasi pagod/antok ako pero di ako makatulog kasi brown out at super init. Putcha! I swear mamya pag balik ng kuryente matutulog lang ako at di ako papasok sa school. Promise!

Anyhoot, nagbabasa basa ako ng mga bagong posts sa blog roll ko at nakita ko ang post ni Wandering Commuter. Basahin dito! Ito naman ang aking take sa isyu na yun.

Simula't sapul sasabihin ko na ayoko ng open relationship at hindi ko nakikita ang sarili ko na magkaroon ng ganito or ma involve sa isang relasyong ganito. On the flip side naman, sasabihin ko na rin na ang bottom line naman nito ay "To each his own!" Kanya kanyang diskarte yan, at sabi nga ni Candy Pangillinan dati sa isang comedy show "San ka BET! AMAZING!" Kung sa'n ka bet, dun ka... Di ko lang talaga keri itey. Kumbakit... tunghayan.

Base sa aking limitadong kaalaman at estadistika sa bagay na ito (estadistika daw oh!), karamihan sa mga kakilala ko na nasa open relationship ay:



1. Matagal na na mag jowa.

Siguro nga, isa ito sa mga pamamaraan kung paano, nasasagot ng mga matagal nang mag jowa ang isyu tungkol sa pagkakasawaan. Aminado ang mga kakilala kong nasa gantong set-up na sa tagal ng pagsasama, di naiiwasan na magkaroon ng "umay" factor. Nirarason nila na isa sa mga nakapagbibigay ng "spice" o nakakapag papa "keep fresh" ng relasyon nila ang patuloy na pakikipag "halubilo" sa mga prospects at "open to open" na mga tao. Mainam kung gayon, pero ang argumento ko laban dito ay dalawa. Una, kung kelan pa tumgal saka pa naging mabuyo. Tumanda ata ng paurong eh. At pangalawa, dontcha think hindi mashadong magandang ehemplo sa mga batang nangangarap mag karoon ng eksklusibong relasyon ang ganito? Parang iisipin ko pa lang mali na agad eh. Kasi parang hindi sya magandang motivation. Parang ganito ang statement na naipaparating nun sa akin eh. Ito ba ang ilu-look forward ko na kahihinatnan ng aking magiging relasyon pag tumagal na? Ayokong isipin na ganun nga! KOOOYAH WAG POOOH! Etching sa glass!



2. Mga Magjowang nahuling me iba, pinatawad, gumanti, pinatawad, ad nauseum.

Obyusli, vicious cycle itey. Kasama na din dito ang mga me drama sa buhay na, "Eh sa ganun sha eh, mahilig... kaya tinatanggap ko na lang. Basta ba sa akin sya umuuwi eh. At saka, minsan naman, ginagawa ko rin naman para ma remind lang sya na kaya ko din gumanti!" This is so wrong! Ewan ko lang ha, kasi naniniwala ako na ang ugali nakakasanayan at naaadjust or napaguusapan at nakakapag compromise, pero pag third party na ang pag uusapan, talu-talo na. Then again, ako lang naman to. Nandito na din nakapaloob ang mga nag rarason na "Mahal ko eh!" Pinipilit kong wag sumigaw ng "TANGA MO KASI EH!" Pero sige, hayaan na natin sila sa mga kadramahan nila sa buhay. Kanilang eksena yan, wag nangingialam. Ang argument ko lang sa puntong to ay ganito. I have the simplest of tastes, I only want the best! I may not always get what I want, I may not even get what I need, but for sure, I know for a fact that I will always get what I deserve. I don't think I deserve anything less... Now! Deserve me!



3. Mahilig/Commitment Phobic

Rason din ito ng mga taong takot sa exclusivity. Rason pa nila, mas maganda pa nga na kahit walang commitment, eh nandyan pa rin. Kasama din dito ang malamang, pagkakagusto dun sa sinabi ni Mew sa huling scene ng The Love of Siam na "I can not be your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean I do not love you!" Ewan! Anlabo! Bobo na ako kung bobo pero hindi ko getch kung panong nangyari yun. Mahal mo pero can not be your boyfriend? Hindi ba talaga pwede o ayaw mo lang? Simple lang naman kasi ang alam ko dito eh. Sabi lang naman kasi ni Sex Bomb Rochelle "Kung ano ang nasa puso mo, sundin mo! Get get AWWWW!!! Jologs ko no?




4. LDR's

Aside from the fact na mahirap na to start with ang set up na to, nag kakaroon din ng open relationships ang mga nagkakaroon ng Long Distance Relationships dahil nga sa physical detatchment at imposibilidad na magkasama at mag alam mo na! Kaya, pampaubag loob, at sabi pa nila "naiintindihan ko kung maghahanap ka dyan dahil pangangailangan mo yan, at wala naman ako at di ko maibibigay ang pangangailangan mong yan!" Ayambotchaay! I don't get it! Masalimuot na nga ang relasyong LDR at isa din yan sa mga bagay na hindi ko kayang pasukin. Pisikal akong tao at isa sa mga demands ko talaga ay pisikal na presensya ng minamahal. Sabi ni Lola Whitney she needs a man who'll take a chance on a love that burns hot enough to last, but when the night falls, her lonely heart calls, daw. In other words, malanderj sya! Yun na yun! Ang argument ko naman dito ay simple lang din ulit. I don't care how you get here just get here if you can! Yun na!






5. Sundry account

Dito na pagsama samahin lahat ng rason kumbakit nagkaka open relationship. Kasama dito ang kaeklatan na "Window Period" kung saan, mahal ka na nya pero hindi pa sya ready, "Road Test" kung saan testingin muna ang relasyon na para bagang ito'y isang sasakyan, "Blind Bluff" kung saan tinetesting din kung makakasurvive sa phase na itey ang relasyon na para bagang lab experiment ang pagmamahal at madaming nalalamang litmus test ang mga hinayupaks, at "Waiting Room" kung saan mahal ka na nya pero me jowa pa sya kaya open relationship muna ang kaya nyang ibigay at ang "Buffet" kung saan, mahal ka na nya pero malaki lang talaga ang mata nya at gusto nya pa rin ng patikim tikim kung mas me masarap pa sa yo. Sa nasabi ko na kanya kanyang moda yan. Kung san ka bet dun ka. Pamarket market. Kung market mo, buy mo! Sakay na, sabi ni Ateng Shawie! Ang argument ko naman dito ay ganito, at hindi ito quote, sariling words ko to... "That one true thing is really hard to find. Imagine... 8 billion people in the world and counting, and all I really need is one! JUST ONE! Now, you see how difficult that is? And on the flip side, you see how special it should be? ONE! Just ONE!

Now, susubukin ko isummarize ang mga rason kung bakit hindi ko bet ang OPEN relationship.

5. Kalokohan lang sya at rason na lang lahat para maging convenient. Love has always belonged to the region of the heart and not the intellect. These categorizations are product of 'logical' thinking, or manipulations of the 'thinking' man, to suit his needs and wants. Hindi porke't hindi mo mahanap sa ngayon ang One true thing, mag se-settle ka na lang kasi yun na lang yun.

4. Kahit bisexual ako at nagka girlfriend at boyfriend, never ko pinagsabay. Hindi makatarungan! Bisexuality is not a license to infidelity or promiscuousity. Besides, if you can not even concentrate and make that ONE work, what gives you the license to go on ahead and mess up with multiples? Saka, buti kung yung makaka fling mo ay alam ang pinapasok nya? Eh pano kung gusto ka rin masolo? Di naman kaya kawawa ang mga colaterals dito dahil sa kalechehan nyong dalawa ng jowa mo?

3. Been there, been that, sabi ni Miss Marquez. Isa lang naman talaga. Tignan mo na lang. Kahit gaano ka ka horny, isa lang ang etits mo. Try mo nga ipasok yan sa dalawang butas simultaneously! Ewan ko na lang kung kaya mong i-split yan!

2. Ang pag ibig ay hindi friendster o multiply. Wag swapang! Hindi rin sya buffet table na eat all you can! Wala ring "it's complicated" dito. Besides, madamot ako. Kung akin ka, akin ka lang! Same way na kung sa yo ako, sa yo lang talaga ako.

1. Hopeless romantic ako at naniniwala ako sa ONE TRUE THING! Yun na yun!

At bilang pagwawakas at tribute na rin sa mga tulad ko na naniniwala sa ONE true thing, itong susunod na picture ay para sa atin. Nawa ay mahanap na natin sila at tuluyan nang lumigaya sa mga buhay pagibig natin kasama yung isang espesyal na taong yun, hanggang sa ating pagtanda! Mabuhay ang pag ibig! Mabuhay ang umiibig ng tapat!


Photo Credits:

http://www.firehouseneon.com/
http://www.cpcsm.org/
http://www.superstock.com/
http://www.associatedcontent.com/
http://www.randomreviewcrew.com/
http://www.myspace.com/annatarlowestoft
http://www.homovision.tv/
http://www.elderadvocacyblog.com/

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

First Day Funk

Woke up at around 6pm today. Which means, yes, I missed classes! My shift starts at 12AM and it would be my 1st night taking calls. But first, a few things.



1. CHARMED ONE!


Charm and Cherish... Luis' loves times two!


Charmita is in town. She is my breath of fresh air when I entered Law School, and our legendary "Instant Friendship Bond, Just Add Yosi" story is one for the books. She now works for a BPO in Manila, and was my 'hostess' pun very much intended, when I swung by Manila last September to grab me my Palanca Award. She came home for her daughter's 2nd Birthday, and come hell or waters high, I MUST meet her! I am proud to have named her daughter. While she was still pregnant, we would already think of a name for the baby. If it was a boy, he would have been named "Uriel" for the archangel who bears the name "Fire of God" and who happens to be my favorite Archangel. We were quite in a quandary if she turned out to be a girl. Charm and I were sharing earphones while listening to one of our favorite Madonna song "Borderline." We share an affinity and inner understanding for the lyrics

Just try to understand
I'm giving it all I can
But you got the best of me...

And then it hit me! OF COURSE! If the baby would be a girl, it would have to be CHERISH! Another song from Madonna! And cherish it was of course... except for an additional second name to honor (?) the sperm donor's Iranian ancestry... NAYSHA! And yesterday, dear baby Cherish Naysha turned two. I had to fight the urge to throw away the hard week's training, and the whole ramp up shindig at work just to buy a few more hours with Charmita! BUMMER!


2. FAB @ FORTY with SAM P.

Samantha with an equally scandalous named boat

Sam, or Samantha , a very good friend turned forty today. I just had to drop by his little "bottle-up" with select friends, if only to drop off his birthday present. I was so happy that even if I had to hurriedly leave after three sticks of Yosi, I felt I made Sam's day. My gift? Oh a little book of poetry by Mother John Iremil E. Teodoro, entitled "Kung ang Tula ay Pwedeng Pambili ng Lalaki" (If a poem can be used to buy men). I sure loved the big hearted laugh that Sam gave when he read the dedication.

Para kay Sam,
Na hindi na
Kailangang mamili
Ng lalaki...
Happy Birthday!

3. WALK ALL OVER ME!

After this I hurriedly left Sam's party and went to work. The first few calls were a bit crazy for me, but the shift went on very nicely. FW was there, shuttling back and forth, assisting us with first day craziness. The aircon was on full blast, but he was sweating all over. I did call for hep from him a few times, but later on, was basically free of him. At times when no calls were coming in for me, I would snatch a glimpse of him, sweating and shuffling, and I would smile with the thought of wiping the sweat off his foreheads. Hold your horses Luis! Sex in the workplace is such a no-no! Besides, it is not a confirmed thing that he is gay. He has a girlfriend, see... That alone takes him off your hit list. Yada yada yada, but I cant help myself from stealing glances. And yes, he would catch me and I would look away as fast as I can. I would smile deep inside, and when I would look back at him, I would see him beaming too. Argh! Towards the end of my shift, when I looked at him, I tried not to look away, and he came over. FCK! NOW WHAT!

FW: Great first night Luis!
Me: Thank you. Couldn't have survived it without you!
FW: Oh no... Shaky start, but towards the end, you were doing great without much assistance!
Me: Awww... thanks... But really, it helped ease my tension that there was assistance nearby...
FW: No problem, it's my job.
Me: Really, thanks so much!
FW: For?
Me: Being gentle with me... It's my first time you know... I'm technically a virgin at this!
(As soon as I said that I thought AWWW FCK LUIS! WHY DID YOU SAY THAT IDIOT!)
FW: (Laughs sweetly but not derisively) You learn fast! In no time, you'd be just fine and all over the floor.
Me: (Arghhh... silly kinky pictures in my mind of you and me literally all over the floor!) Gee thanks... glad to know that when I slip, you would be there.
FW: I got you covered! Hahahaha!
Me: (Errrr... I would like to show you how else covers can be done... The more 'revealing' kinda cover!) Smile... Thanks a lot FW!

Towards the end of the shift, everyone looked beaten up. Including FW, but he still manages a smile.



Hey you!
Tiresome thing, this is, ayt?
I would really love
To stuff you in my bag
Later when I get off
Take yo home
(Yours or mine, or otherwise
It really don't matter to me)
And see if we can push our luck
And tire each other some more
And get the both of us off too!

I was holding on to that thought when a call came through.i had to reorganize my thoughts and focus on the call. I picked up...

Me: Hello, thank you for calling ( account name), this is ROQ (pronounced as Rock) speaking, how may I be of help to you.
Caller: (A slutty voice came through)Hi! What's your name again?
Me: Hi Ma'am, it's Roq!
Caller: OH! Rock! How hard?
(Geeeeeeessssssshhhhh!)
Me: (Curtly, but as business friendly as I can muster!) Very Hard Ma'am, now can I have your name and Shop ID Number please!

PUHLEAAAAAAZZZZZZ! GIMME A BREAK!

Oh, yes, I managed to steal a shot of FW. How I did that and how, to start with, I managed to sneak in my cellphone, is a skill I do not easily dispense to everyone and sundry. And I am so not posting it here. I will have it printed though, and prop it on my cubicle to always put a smile on my face. Now all I need to do is remember to keep it off prying eyes. Watch me... Watching you watch me watching you!


For now, I gotta get me some shut eye! Tahtah! Oh, and by the way, call me malandi if you want, but really, this is not yet even close! A man's gotta have some, ayt?


Photo Credits:

http://www.enerhealthbotanicals.com
www.funnypart.com

Monday, December 8, 2008

Warmth

Today is a day off from my exciting new work. Training ended and I am going to be receiving calls tomorrow. I am happy with what's going on at work and I love how my Team Leader and Floor Walker is as excited as I am to see what I can do come Monday. My shift at 12:00 AM to 8:00 AM is also very very convenient as I get enough time to steam off and unload school concerns before I come on board. I'm scared a bit and excited all at once.

Since today is an off day, I went out and grab the usual mug at my lair. Ever since I started training, I haven't been to my lair and I miss my alone/hang-out time with a steamy mug of coffee.

What I noticed most was the crisp cold bite of the December air. This is what I hate about off days; the non occupation of the mind will surely give the heart a time for bitching and wrenching rants! I'm cold and lonely is what it said tonight.

Forgive this emo post, but, as everyone knows, there will always be nights like these. Nights when we go emo and feel all the shitty thingamajigs especially "when the night falls and my lonely heart calls," says lola Whitney!

As it has always been; writing is, and will always be my release, so allow me to unburden a bit, ayt? GOD! The cold seeps through my jacket and into my bones, and no matter how long it has been, I really can not get used to being alone like this. I still believe that I was made to warm someone else's dark December night, as someone was made to warm mine as well. For now, there's coffee and yosi... till then! I quietly sipped my coffee, puffed yosi, release a deep sigh of longing, and utter a little prayer, to that supreme being, up above and beyond the skies. whoever He/She/It may be. Where are you, my Christmas cheer? Will you be able to find me before this loneliness that kills forfeit our tickets to forever? Like this blogpost, there are no pictures to stare at; only words that try to tell of the cold and bitter winds that lash my body and only the thought that someone, somwhere out there is wondering too, what's taking me so long keeps the frail flame aglow.

Dearest One,

I have always believed that for a shot at happiness, everything is worth it. But I am also left wondering if I have used up all my shots... I have always believed in love and finding it with all my heart, but I also wonder if my belief is misplaced.

If and when I have used up all my shots, will you take one of yours for me? And if I will come to a point where I would stop believing in love, will it be love's turn to believe in me?

Maybe it's just the cold December nights, and maybe, it is as they say, that the darkest part of night is during the last few minutes before the sun would rise.

It's cold in here without you, and I am pretty sure, it's cold there too, without me.

Please...

Find me!

TOINK!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Twelve oh Five Final Part (Ze' Work and Possible Play)


I got back to work and I was sooo late! Good thing that I was able to tell my trainor about the event and invited her too, so she already knew where I was coming from when I texted her that I'd be running late.

We will be having one final module and our Oral exams in the form of a mock call for the night. We drew lots and prepared for the mock call. I got number 8 out of 14 lots. Good number. Not too soon, not too late.

I was a bit nervous, and I was cramming to remember all the possible concerns that my mock caller would have and how I may assist her/him. We were also asked to choose and written down the names we will be using when taking calls. Some of us have to use a name that would be more American Sounding. I chose ROQ! as in Rock! Sounds like rakenroll ya know! :)

My caller had a simple concern, and the total call time was less than a minute! I totally rocked!



While waiting for our turns, I had a pleasant chat with another trainor. He said he will be with us Customer Service Help Desk people next week and he will be our Floor Walker. I dig his dimples! Chubby Chinito, sightly older than me, very personable, and nice! I think I have a new crush! Eherm!

I immediately asked my trainor (who happens to be a very good friend) if FW (Floor Walker) was gay, and she said yes, he was, but quickly added that he had a girlfriend! DUH! Oh well... I approached FW again at a later time and ask for his number. Without batting an eyelash, he gave it to me. Hmmm... Do I smell an office romance in the offing... Que Sera Sera for Roq and FW!




When we were starting to leave for the day, one employee approached me and introduced herself. She was one of the Team Leaders on the floor. She asked me if I was okay to go on a 12:00-8:00 shift when we start taking calls next week. I said yes, I wouldn't have a problem with that and quickly added, that is, if I pass the big final exams tomorrow and the final evaluation. She smiled at me and said, "Darling, pass or not, they had me plot a schedule for you down pat, so, premature as it may be, I say welcome to the team, and burn the floor baby! See yah Monday!"

WHOA!!!! I WAS FLOORED!!! Just as I thought the day would end quietly for me, another one explodes!


Oh and I found this on my email, too!


GOD I WANT/NEED THAT DIGICAM! ITS ON TOP OF MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST...PLEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEE!!!


OH WHAT A DAY...

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